{"id":702,"date":"2014-03-13T21:40:43","date_gmt":"2014-03-14T03:40:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/babyg.brainstormwarning.org\/?p=702"},"modified":"2014-03-13T22:37:17","modified_gmt":"2014-03-14T04:37:17","slug":"the-bfp","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/babyg.brainstormwarning.org\/index.php\/2014\/03\/13\/the-bfp\/","title":{"rendered":"The BFP"},"content":{"rendered":"

This will come as a shock to basically no one.\u00a0 But in the last several months, I’ve participated in an online community with a number of other ladies who have been trying to conceive for a long time and\/or are trying to conceive after a loss.\u00a0\u00a0 It really helped me get through the last several cycles in a number of ways.\u00a0\u00a0 These forums are FULL of acronyms and initialisms that pertain to the whole process of making a baby.\u00a0 So far on this blog, I’ve done my best to avoid these things because I imagine most people probably wouldn’t get it.\u00a0 It has taken some effort–I feel like I’m being so wordy actually spelling everything out because it has become such a habit to shorten everything.\u00a0 Anyway, one of\u00a0the<\/em> most important ones to know is “BFP.”\u00a0 That is, B<\/strong>IG F<\/strong>AT P<\/strong>OSITIVE.\u00a0 Like on a hpt (home pregnancy test).\u00a0<\/p>\n

The story of my BFP is a little unusual (for me?) this time.\u00a0 My last two pregnancies, I got my BFP on 12 dpo (days past ovulation).\u00a0 Well, I can be certain of that with my first pregnancy.\u00a0 My last pregnancy, I hadn’t started charting yet, but best I can determine that’s about right.\u00a0 I certainly hadn’t missed my period yet.\u00a0 I got these positive tests on “ICs.” \u00a0 Internet Cheapies.\u00a0\u00a0 I’ve heard the comparison, pregnancy tests are like soda: they can cost pennies to make, but the markup on them is crazy.\u00a0 With S, I was also using dollar store tests, and those were good too.\u00a0 But since I could use an IC without having to drag myself out to Dollar Tree (I really have nothing else I must buy there), I used ICs pretty much exclusively for many, many months.\u00a0 To my knowledge, they have never steered me wrong.<\/p>\n

Until this time.\u00a0 I tested with an IC (same brand as before) on 11 dpo (early but not impossible): BFN (did you guess it? Big Fat Negative).\u00a0 Then tested again on 13 dpo–one day later than my previous BFPs.\u00a0 Another BFN (I kept checking to be sure).\u00a0 I was sure I was out.\u00a0 I told Pete this cycle was another bust.<\/p>\n

HPTs are rapid assay diagnostics.\u00a0 Meaning the results…they are rapid.\u00a0 Every hpt I’ve ever used had a time limit of 10 minutes on it.\u00a0 Some tests you’re supposed to be able to have a result by 3 minutes, but after the 10 minute mark, anything you see besides the control line is just some kind of chemical change in the test and NOT to be trusted.\u00a0 The instructions will warn you not to look at tests too late.\u00a0 Even so, I basically always go back and pull my tests out of the trash to look at them later.\u00a0 Every time, it has remained stark white negative.\u00a0 This time, when I checked it about…I don’t remember for sure…7 hours later?\u00a0 There was a definite line.\u00a0 Not a shadow.\u00a0 It had color.\u00a0 But it for sure turned up after the time limit, so it had to be considered an “evaporation line.”<\/p>\n

Here’s a picture of what it looked like at about the 12 hour mark, but it’s hard to see.\u00a0 It was difficult to photograph.\u00a0 And it was somewhat faint but definitely there.\u00a0 For me even when I look at it now, it’s different depending on what screen I’m on (laptop or phone), how the screen is angled, etc.\u00a0 But you’ll just have to trust me that I didn’t have to squint to see it.<\/p>\n

\"evap\"<\/a><\/p>\n

My brain said evap evap evap.\u00a0 I mean, the line showed up after the time limit, so by definition it’s an evap.\u00a0 But part of me thought this was very interesting at the least.\u00a0 I posted it in a couple of threads on my online group, and most of the comments were like…you’re sure that’s an evap?\u00a0 Of course I did get some comments too from people who have gotten evaps like that that did NOT turn into a BFP.\u00a0 I knew this.\u00a0 I knew it was likely even.\u00a0 But I still had this nagging feeling that maybe I am pregnant.<\/p>\n

The next day was a Monday.\u00a0 I was off work, but the weather was pretty gross and cold, and I didn’t want to go out.\u00a0 Even though I was out of tests.\u00a0 I was just going to wait until Tuesday when I was going to have to get out anyway.\u00a0 Plus my period was due either Monday or Tuesday, so maybe I’d have a clear answer before I wasted money on a test anyway.\u00a0 But I had some symptoms and I was finding it very hard to wait.<\/p>\n

It’s strange to say I had symptoms because really.\u00a0 When you’re paying extra close attention to your body every month, anytime ANYthing is different, you start to think maybe?????\u00a0 But then you’re not pregnant, none of those seemingly weird and different things meant anything, and the cycle repeats.\u00a0 So I thought I had symptoms, maybe.\u00a0 Do I still need to warn you that some of this may be TMI?\u00a0 Anyway, here they are. As they were, anyway.\u00a0 Most of these have changed.<\/p>\n